as ePiC seats to the his house garden, some thoughts have strikes him.

"I thought we want some changes, will there be a good change if someone started to make a treat to one family, changes can only happen if there is a union in between one family to other family, for me this war is useless the changes we wanted is merely a dream to all. If a traitor exist dreams are not to happen, I know I can’t do anything right now but after this do you think you can still sleep if you won this war. There is someone out there that will take same steps that what others have done today.  They will rose up and raise their guns onto you, same thing, same routine will happen, changes will never happen. As my father died without seeing these changes I will stand to see if it will happen soon. I don’t know how it will happen but I know someone out there will do it for all of us.

Does the one who started this wanted to have changes too or just wanted the power to let everybody see how good he is, if you won? What can you offer to others? Can you offer better for all of the mobster in your city or you can only do the same thing as other can do? It’s not mocking, its only reality, can you do better? Is there something you have done to prove yourself your better than them? Better and greater than them?"

ePiC look at the skies and hopes for an answer but who will answer him....

I fear this changes you and other have longed or dreamed for will never happen. Peace is never an option if someone wants power and control over their businesses.  Afterall, we are in mafia there is more of a hatred,revenge,backstab than love,peace,friendship.

Chuck pats epic's shoulder

Im just saying.

ePiC look at Chuck and nod on him...

I just hope nothing will happen like this again or to others aswell, as what I see now, the government will not last long, for everyone doesnt't know who is their real ally at the moment, it will be a sleepless night for each and everyone.

The only thing we can do now is to congratulate the peoples for their endeavour, and pity them at their last breathe if that day will come.

ePiC look at a single white flower in the middle of the garden that rarely happens.

Something like this will always happen.One day it will be our turn to take a swim with the fishes.But before that day comes,I hope I can make a mark in our community and die with dignity a criminal can have.

ePiC looks at chito_miranda and smile...

Hope everybody has that same diginity you want.  What is the meaning of Dignity for you? said as he stares at chito_miranda's eye

To be able to stare at the gun's barrel and accept that my time has come.To die without breaking down and crying like a little girl knowing that death is part of the life I have chosen...the life of a criminal.To teach my son that should my life be taken away he should not whine in the streets but instead decide if he is to follow the path I have chosen or live a different life.That for me is a criminal's definition of dignity.

I sleep like a baby every night.

I don't know where this idea that we are all unsure around each other has come from. I was running a captaincy in New York 3 months ago; Iota was the Godfather of Chicago, Jim Levenstein became the Godfather of New Orleans not long after that, TheDean was already a Boss within New York and Robert_Guiscard was my associate. We have been operating together for many months, this isn't a new situation for any of us and whilst events have transpired not all that much has changed in our relationships with each other.

We also have co-operated with each other in two major conflicts, shed blood together, mourned together and celebrated together. It is not as if this situation has arisen by chance, it was by design.

ePiC smiled again for what chito had said, but he wonder is whining around the street and asking is a bit different or are they the same?

Hmm. Indeed. That is dignity. Not a criminals definition in my book though.

You see. In this world it's all about living. If you die then you are obviously useless. As in the recent war, people used their head, made deals and didn't just accept their fate. I am not having the argument over right or wrong in this with anyone. For me it was a smart move and if they are happy living with the barbs and the snide remarks then it was well worth it.

The line has changed. It is no longer the same world you once knew. You will not see as many people walk into a bullet for the greater good. Obviously you have the brave souls who will and they truly are a class apart but this is business people and dead people are bad for it.

As for your whining in the streets remark. People whine because of the effort put in by their parents to get to where they were. It's a natural reaction and one I can accept for a short period. The people who whine over many bloodlines are nothing but spolit children who expected things to be offered on a platter for who their parents were and got nothing. They show that the bloodline has no dignity in my opinion.

So while your definition of dignity is what I used to accept as being what you should do. The line is now far too blurred on this front to say thats how it is but perhaps it is how it should be.