"Secra look to your left, I am right here...although it's pretty funny to watch you get all goofy..you goober." He said, as he looked at her almost in a laughing mood, he shook his head, as he stood away from the post, walking over to her.

"Tell me something..should I be worried as to why you are kicking rocks, I mean... it makes you look even more adorable." He laughed, as he then walked up to her, and he picked her up swinnging her around, showing how much he missed being around her, how much he miseed being home, " Although... I am surprised you haven't climbed onto my back and hung there." He laughed some more.

"I wanted to say...thank you for the party, it means a lot that you made me feel welcome." He smiled as he let her down, then walked  over a little and grabbed a tea, and poured some sugar and vcream into it, he shook his head, not really knowing what to think or what to say about last night, but he knew he had to talk to her about it.

Secra smiled and jumped turning in the direction he said he was in as st stood embarrassed again by his words she looked up at him as he picked her up swinging her around she giggled and smiled. "I was worried, you left again and the rocks were just there!" She giggled and was set down as her went to get tea.

Joining him she sat down at her chair and put some sugar and honey in her tea before watching him. "Well, I cant just not welcome you home. After all you deserve a welcome back, and a proper one at that!" She chirped out with a giggle. She smiled, her cheeks red but quickly taking a sip of tea as she watched him carefully. 

She thought over what was said last night and set her cup down, "A... about last night..." She had to think of a better way to say it. "I didnt mean to intrude on your time of rest. and for that I am sorry." She smiled small, feeling he was okay with it but she did not like to invade his space encase he would feel like she was intruding.

"Now, why would I do that, when I promised?" He laughed, shaking his head at her, loving her laughter and giggle, making hapier than he had been in awhile, he sighed, as he kind of looked back at her taking a sip of his tea.

"Well, I never realized how much I was missed...I Am glad I was missed....although, I hope you have been keeping youself busy in the mean time."He stated as he watched her join him, taking her seat, while messing with the sugar, he shook his head. "So, I do like the party, you alwyas knew how to plan." He siad, as he took another sip of his tea and set it down, he then took a seat as well.

"Oh...nah I wouldn't worry about it...actually it was refreshing....I did miss how we used to snuggle at night, and have our nights of fun...although you seem to be busy anymore....so I would like it if we could do that more often." He said, as he crossed his arms looking over at him, he smiled, he combed his fingers through his long hair, moving it out of his face.

Secra smiled at him as she listened to his words. Looking at him she picked up her tea and took a drink before setting her cup down and smiling at him. "Well, you have a tendency to leave without notice.. so i thought you did it again."

She looked at him smiling brightly now as he praised her for the little welcome back party, and that he felt welcomed home again. She listened more as he sat down and started talking about the night before. "Well... I.. I do miss spending time with you, and being held is comforting...." She smiled and looked at him, "Vezzy?" She blushed softly when he said it would be nice to spend time like the night before again.

Secra didnt pick her cup up again but kept her hands in her lap trying to convince herself to get up and just move over to him. She stood up head down and walked over to where Vezux was seated. It was quiet in the garden everyone had left their greetings and went back to work leaving the two alone. She decided to lean close and kiss his cheek, before wrapping her arms around him with a sad smile. "I missed you.... a lot Vezzy... and I know you can sense it but I really wish you didnt have to leave so much." 

"Secra, I am for that...but I wish I could just stay for ever....but being who am I can't...i have other obligations as well...but I will let you know what I am doing on the road.....and I will send you letters....maybe one of these times I will take you with me...and when have I ever broken a promise?" He flinched, remembering something and nodded.

"Haha...we are always..and will be good snuggle bunnies...I would like to be closer to you...than anyone else...since I know you...did know you and some ways....if we don't close each other off...our bond is unbreakable..or I would like to think....you do know how to make a good party." He said, as he looked dead at her in her eyes. 

Watching her get up, he gave a soft smile, then suddenly it surprised him, as she walked over to him...he couldn't very well stay like....his eyes widened as she had kissed his cheek...what did that even mean, did she like him, like he liked her, then when she locked her arms around him, as if she was pulling him towards her, he felt like he was in shock, but he kind of liked it. THen seeing her sad smile, he pulled her in his lap gently, he chuckled. "You surprise me...although, for someone who likes to keep everyone way, sure seems to keep me close, and im glad for that." He stated, as he kissed her forehead, he looked up to see everyone gone, and he raised a brow laughing.

She looked at Vezux, listening to his wish about staying with her and his words saying he might take her along one day.Seeing the flinch she kept her arms around him. Staring as he talked more this time about snuggle bunnies and being closer and how the party was great. She would only smile as a response.

His look, unmoved and locked to her eyes she felt a shiver run through her spine. She took a strand of his hair and started to play with it in her fingers  sitting in his lap. She looked at him, smiling softly as she as he spoke about how she always pushed others away. "I have been trying not to... but, I cant just push you away, its not that easy." She looked at him before playing with a strand of his hair that hung over his shoulder.

He raised a brow to seeing her play with his hair, and he felt her playing with a strand of his hair, he could see she was a bit figity, he raised a brow, even though he was hoping he was right that she hadn't been drinking, but they way she was figit now, made him think of all the times he had brought her back from all the drunken travels she would pour herself into, until either almost the brink of death, or until she ended up at her worst, for a week, always in a screaming venge, he shook his head, "I hope you haven't been drinking while I was away, because if you have, I will be disappointed." He said, as he looked down to see her finger playing with a loose curl.

As he looked up, looking out the garden window, the sun coming, he remembered all those nights, when her guards would call him, he would either have to pick her up from the front area, on the floor, or he would have to clean her up everyonce in awhile off the couches, he remembered she always seemed angry back then, but guessed he kind of understood why, but it didn't mean, she had to go off herself in a bottle either, but maybe she was still lonely. Maybe it was time to concentrate on her more often.

Secra looked at him and looked away a little hurt by his words. "I... I havent..." She let go of his hair and slipped off his lap. "You should have known better.. I am behaving, and havent touched it in a week..." She stood next to him now looking back disappointing herself that he would ask as she had just wanted to play with his hair to forget about her drinks. 

"I have to go get some work done. Welcome home, but ill be in my office for a while." She turned as the maids came out to clean up what they could. Before walking off to her office and telling two of her bodyguards to not let anyone bother her. Entering her office she sat down looking at her papers she had put off for a couple days and started filling them out as well as signing them as needed. Thinking she was a little harsh towards him she leaned back in her chair to think.

"Secra...I didn't mean..." He sighed, seeing the hurt look in her face, he didn't know what to say after that, he didn't mean for it to come out like that, he just wanted to make sure she wasn't hurting herself, he rubbed his face, as she gave him a look as she started to walk away from him.

"Hey, I did like that party....I thank you for that.....Secra!!!" He said, seeing her again give him a hurt look, as if he had just stabbed her in the back, or stole her best friend, he didn't know what to think, feeling like a straight up jerk, he rubbed his face, as he saw her stalk off, he then Proceeded to to stand up, and go to his room.

As he walked into his room, he had to clear his head, so he shut his door, as he sat on his bed, he combed his fingers through his hair, as he started to feel less than what he did when we came back home, he then grabbed his whiskey, and popped the cork, as he took a huge gulp and closed it, putting it away, he then proceeded to kind of throw himself into paperwork, trying tofigure out his thoughts.

Secra sat in her office finishing her work before sighing and moving off to her room. Pooring a glass of her own whiskey she kept in her room she sat in front of her mirror looking, at the reflection of herself. "Just a few... wont hurt right?" She was bent out of shape and new she had a problem when it came to her drinking.

One glass.... two glasses.... they turned to eight glasses of whiskey fairly quick as she swayed and sat in the middle of her floor. She started talking to herself as she muttered. "Why would he say that..." She felt her tears welling up, "I dont know  how to tell him anymore." She rubbed her eyes drinking one more glass of whiskey  before looking back at the mirror, "will he accept my feelings?"... She opened, the door to her room, then to the hall swaying and moving over towards Vezux's room she wiped her eyes her nose and cheeks were red, as she opened the door quietly and looked in. 

Seeing as he was working on his papers she stepped in trying to not make noise as she shut the door and slowly walked over towards vez. Though in the midst she tripped on her own feet and fell on the center of the floor.

apon hearing his door being opened, he looked up for a second, his back turned to the door. "Yes?....if you are wanting to clean my room....its still clean from yesterday." He said, feeling annoyed, then he suddenly heard those padded feet, he was used to hearing, he sighed, as he rubbed his face.

"Look Secra.....I..."He stopped in midsentnce, hearing her fall, as he spun around quickly, he disappeared out of his chair, and he appeared next to her, bending down on his knees.

As he appeared next to her, getting down on his knees, he could smell the alcohol, under her breath, he sighed, shaking his head, wondering what in the gods was she doing..."Secra...what have you done?" He said, as he picked her up, cradling her to his chest, carrying her to the bed, as he laid her down in his bed, he shook his head, moving her hair out of his face. "Secra, I am sorry...I shouldn't have said what I did...I,....didn't mean to come off as jerk." He said, as he sat at the edge of the bed, seeing her puffy eyes, red.

He had noticed she must have been crying, he sighed again, maybe he was a jerk, or maybe he could have said it in a different way, or a nicer way, he probably couldn't but, he was just making sure she was healthy, but him leaving for soo long didn't help, she was alone, but he needed to figure things out, without bringing her in it, or maybe he didn't need to keep it from her, his feelings was soo deeply mad for her, would she accept him? all of him? would she even want him? knowing what he was? he didn't know, he had to quit pushing her away...he didn't want to lose her, and he knew someone could always come along and take her away, and he didn't want that.

Being lifted from where she ended up hugging the floor. She looked at his chest and kept her face hidden, she stared at him even after being placed on the bed. Looking up at him she didnt know what she looked like to him, she felt like she would just burst into tears because she hated making him upset, but she could never fully tell in her drunken states, all emotions seemed the same of misery.

She listened his warm hand brushing her hair from her face she sat up, after a few minutes of not moving too much. She felt like she knew and asked the questions to herself. What do I feel for Vezux? Will he turn away if I tell him? She thought to herself her head turned down looking at her lap as she sat on the bed. Hair covering her face as she thought to herself. My head is cloudy... but my heart is not, my heart wants him to stay. She felt her tears fall again onto her lap as she shakes trying to hide her tears from Vezux.

She hated being drunk, but at the same time she loved it. She always told the truth when drunk.... And people did not seem to care one bit cause it was her way of being herself. She looked up at Vezux, her tears still falling she took a breath and spoke quietly, "My heart wants you..." Embarrassed she looked down scared to be declined but also glad she was able to let it out.

Apon seeing her sit up in his bed, her hair in his face, then suddenly crying, he sighed, shaking his head, he crawled over to her, without a word, he stayd on his knees, pulling her up next to him, his hands on either side of her face, moving her hair out of her face, he could see the tears she cried for him, without saying anything, he pulled her close, his face just a couple of inches from hers. As their lips touched, he could feel his love her burned deep into him.

As, he kissed her, he let on of his arms wrap around her, and left one of his hands at her cheek, showing her how he felt, he kind of gently pulled her with him, no words, as he felt his breath felt like it was heavy, but he felt better, as he kissed her, even without thinking, he used his thumb to waipe away her tears, he he could hear his heart beat in his ear, his heart felt like it was about to be entranced for as lone as she would keep it. He hoped he had she would keep it for ever. "Secra....I know.....I have been wanting you for too long...but we always seem put keep each other at arms length, because we are afraid to hurt each other..." He said trying to find the right words, as he broke the kiss.

He sighed, as he pulled her close into his chest, she was drunk after all, he wondered if she would even remember this tomorrow, of if she would forget, he sighed, as he just let her cry, as he kissed her forehead, and played with her hair, feeling a bit shocked himself, wondering if it was the alcohol talking or, then suddenly his heart reminded him it was real, and they way she said her heart wanted him. "Alright secra....you win." He said, finally, as he intertwined his fingers in her hair, he kissed her again, this time, giving her what they both wanted.

Secra sat there being pulled closer to him into a soft hold before their lips met. Looking at him in almost shock at the moment. She lifted her arms and hugged him gently as she let her eyes lock onto his before closing slowly. Held by a arm and his hand to her cheek she felt bliss there that moment. 

Secra felt his thumb wipe the tears away from her eyes not wanting to let him go, her heart beating quickly as though it would explode. She finally had him, the fear of being pushed away eased out of her mind. Glad she had finally said it, she felt him pull back from the kiss, and heard his words. "I was afraid...." She opened her watery green eyes looking into his eyes. If she could she would stay lost forever in them without needing to speak. 

She felt herself being pulled into a embrace closing her eyes as she felt his lips on her forehead and his fingers playing with her hair. She looked back up to him before being kissed again, his fingers in her hair, and her arms around him she felt much better now still on her buzz and if she could get drunk from his kiss, she would be plastered by now.

Seeing her shock, he almost wanted to laugh, but he didn't, he sighed shaking his head, as he kept there, "Secra, is this not what you expected?" He asked as he looked down at her, as she stared into his eyes, he rubbed noses with her, as he licked his lips.

Showing a reaction that he was hoping for he, he smiled, falling for her all over again, feeling a rush of emotions for her, in new ways that he couldn't mae sense of, as he could only kiss her again, he could feel her almost clinging to him, "Secra, talk to me...why is it your are crying?" He asked, trying to get her to talk to him.

He wondered if the reason they had kind of pushed each other away, was because of how they felt for each other, he couldhold her like this forever, he couldn't leave her alone anymore, he couldn't bare it anymore, he rubbed his thumb along her cheek, and down to her jawliine, "Okay, at least tell me this...what do you want?" He asked, trying to be respectful to her, but also he wanted to make her his, he sighed, chuckling to himself, he was a in place where he was in love, but didn't know if that is what she wanted.

She looked at him and shook her head slowly as their noses rubbed together, he was so warm, and sweet to her. "I thought.. you would have told me  no..." She smiled small happy as she held herself to him. "S..sorry for drinking... again" She muttered out. 

She gave him another little kiss wondering if he would really keep her around him in his life. She held close as he asked why she was crying earlier. "I was afraid you would turn me down.... now im happy, you didnt." She looked at him again, looking into his eyes she could tell by his body language that he wanted her their, next to him. Secra smiled small, thinking about the kiss she was lost. Wanting to stay beside him she curled her fingers holding onto his shirt as she held onto him. 

He asked her, the question of what she wanted, this made her heart skip a beat. Staring at him she opened her mouth no words escaping as she tried to speak what she wanted. She froze, once more unsure if he would accept her. She knew he liked her now, leaning her head into his hand She stared at him for a few minutes in silence, finally speaking softly... "I... I want you..." She gripped his shirt more, "It took so long, but i understand now." She looked at him again, blushing softly embarrassed at her own words but certain of what her heart wanted.

"Yeah...I agree, we are a bit slow, when it comes to love." He almost chuckled, as he realized she had been drinking again, he clicked his tongue as he sighed. "Well, you can drink...just don't go killing yourself....I can't tell you no anymore, I realize you are more honest with yourself, and you seem to open up more...but I would like you to start opening up to me even when you are not drunk..but if it helps then fine." He said, being gentle with her bad habbits. 

"Listen, if and when I do leave, I want you to come with me. " He said, could hear the happiness, mixed with sadness, he felt a little nervous as he started to sigh, "Secra...we are dorks, and you are my goober, okay?...so what I want is you...what I have always wanted is you....now I think you feel the same, but it all depends on you, girly." He said, as he kissed her lips, combing his fingers through her hair, smiling a little.

"Besides, I could never reject you...you have always been special to me, someone who always has a special place in my heart, no matter where we are, where we will be in the future, no matter how much you push me away, I will always want you." He finally said, as he looked down at her once more, feeling his breath was coming in heavier and heavier, as if he was finally letting the flood gates of his emotions open up.

She stared at him as he spoke, being told that she could drink she kept her arms around him and smiled softly. "I...Ill drink with you around then..." She let go of his shirt and moved to she was sitting normally her arms gently around him. She rested her head on his chest for a few minutes before he spoke again.

Looking up and hearing that he wanted her to come along she smiled happily, "I.. I know i am your goober, its the same to you." She blushed heavily at his words as she had no time to respond she kissed back, his fingers combing through her hair she closed her eyes. Nights no longer had to be lonely and quiet, her heart was pounding now, his voice his kiss, she felt like she could go crazy and he would still love her for being herself.

She smiled happily this time after he spoke she pressed her lips to his, without having to speak she put her feelings straight into that kiss. She hoped she would not push him away anymore. It was time for her to follow her heart and change how she thought, she would be more forward starting that night. Holding him in the kiss for some time. "I love you vezzy..." She whispered after breaking the kiss slowly.

"Alright, good, as long as I am around, and I can be around to stop you when you are over doing it." He said kissing her, he nipped her lip softly, as he kind of chuckled, he then looked down at her with hungry eyes. 

He then brought up his finger tips, to touch her lips tracing them, listening to her, he barely touched her, listening to her heart pound in her chest, he bit his own lips, wanting to that to hers, as he smiled back at her, "Yeah..and my goober gets special treatment...if you know what I mean." He leaned forward whispering in her ear, letting his breath tickle her ear.

"I love you.." Was all he could say, as he rolled them over a little, he then started to tease her neck, and her ear lobe, kissing her in places, he smirked teasing her, in such away, as he looked down at her, with hungry eyes, wanting her all to himself, since she confessed to him finally, as he wasn't letting her go any time soon, for she was going to be with him, he would show her what she would be getting.

He Then raised his hand up, closing his room windows, and his doors, giving her the best night of her life, and if she were to stay with him there would tonight and many more.

As Their night ended, turning into the morning, he got into the shower, she was still sleeping, wrapped in his sheets, he had to laugh, remembering of what happened lastnight, it was deep into his mind, as he touched his face, feeling the burning sensation that hse was giving him, turning him on all over again, he kind of gave a breathless laugh.

 Secra looked at him and gave a nod agreeing about her alcohol problem. Kissing back she blushed from the little nip on her lip as he chuckled, looking into his hungry eyes with her soft and sweet eyes.

Feeling his fingers gingerly trace her lips her heart kept pounding, she refused to not smile. "Special treatment?" She questioned as she slightly knew but wanted to hear his voice more, his breath tickling her ear made her blush more.

She heard him finally say those three little words, being rolled over slightly with him, his lips teasing her neck ear lobe and kissing her skin. She blushed deeper as her heart wanted to burst from his teasing, just his lips alone made her want more. She looked back into his hungry eyes, she was his tonight, they both confessed, and she even though embarrassed but excited she was not going to leave. 

As he raised his hand she heard the curtains move and close, the doors shutting and locking so there would be no interruptions she looked up at him. 

Secra slept bundled up in Vezux's bed dreaming of the night before. Dreaming of Vezux's lips, his arms around her body. She nestled herself into the sheets face buried in the sheets and his shirt she had slipped on before finally falling asleep, wondering if it actually happened.