I have been here 6 years and been messed with since my first account.

When I first started there had been a big war like the one we just went through, most of the game was wiped there was 5 or 6 crews. 

My first crew never answered my questions about the game they only wanted to socialize and rp. 
My second crew was little friendly the ignored some questions and answered the ones would benefit them, not teach me the game.

My third crew well the sponsor I had would pp me and then make rape jokes about the pping of me  to the crew about it. I told the crew leader he said if it wasn't directed at me then it was no big deal. I withdrew from people at this point and when the game went to a big war again  I suicided. 

I believe because people didn't know my reason leaving this is where the real harassment started. I was pulled into a crew and then suspicious stuff happened the most suspicious was this Cl's hand asking me why I was so concerned with  the  Cl's protection during the war. I was the CL's proer that is why .  It was sketchy . I suicided out of  there. 

 After this people started posting off topic and out of context stuff into my discussions. They would turn a discussion into a roleplay story not related to the topic. They would  write satirical stuff into a roleplay not related to the roleplay. Ruining my storyline. 

During this time I tried to bring friends I have roleplayed with and played on another game with for 20 some odd years. they came here and experienced the same forum  abuse of their stories . They told me  this community did not support writers, was toxic  and unwelcoming and they left. They asked why I was even staying here. 

As I mentioned before I understand I came into the game when paranoia was at its peak. But that was no reason to not answer my questions as to how to play the game, that is no reason to verbally attack me when I come to the forum to ask a question about something I observed because no one Mentored me in this game. 

So if you all don't like what I am doing or I am not doing shit they way you expect me to, it is your fault for being paranoid and treating a new player with such vehemence when I don't even know why I deserve this treatment.

If it is so bad why have you stuck around for 6 years? No judgement from me here but life is short. Why waste time on things you do not enjoy?

I have been here 6 years

It is your fault for being paranoid and treating a new player with such vehemence when I don't even know why I deserve this treatment

Come on now, it's time to stop being silly.

We love you CherryBomb-. If there’s anything I can do to help you out give me a shout.

Thank you.  Ragnarok and Boogie I have a couple also extend the offer which I am truly grateful for. 

I am not complaining Slash  I am pointing out to folks like your self what the general behavior in the game has been the last years does.

Yes, the community has been changing this, but only since about December of last year.  About when a player came out  and said to the player base that there was only two groups here the one trying to tear this community apart ( the toxic group that behaves the way I stated when starting this convo.) and the group trying to building up the community. 

CherryBomb  is the reflection of the way you ( I say you in general because the way we die in this game and the fact I don't keep track of bloodlines) have been treating me.  If you don't like her you don't like yourself .  Now I am going to suicide  her because quite frankly I don't like reflecting the way you folks have been treating me.  This is not even close to who I am behind the keyboard.