Here i am, sitting in the corner of my dimly lit living room, late at night, drinking my 2nd bottle of wine and thinking, dreaming even, on the idea of What if?

What if i was born to different people? or Born in a different country? England? Scotland maybe?! Could I have been born to a moderately well off family on the lush green outskirts of the city and played in the fields full of maze or sunflowers, a decent school where I could be with friends and grow up without a care in the world, could i have been HAPPY? 

ME HAPPY? yeah right that'll be the day, its cold and i'm in a dark room alone with wine! DOES THAT SPELL HAPPY TO YOU? 

Sometimes I wish I could have been born a man, living in a mans world as we are. I would be respected and listened to! I would go where i please and when I please without fear, without fright and without the need to beg borrow and steal.

Mostly, I just don't want to be here, id rather be anywhere but here. 

To be able to just see what could have been if something else had happened in my life and if i had taken other opportunities. What would i have become What would my Sliding Doors moment be?

What If?