Day 203

So far, things have been decently peaceful. We are in an era where people can build a fair life for themselves. Personally, I think that is healthy for our country and organized crime. Letting things breath without constant murder is good for our organizations and the integrity of what we stand for as criminals – we aren’t mindless killers. Well, most of us.

I’ve tried to keep peace, but peace never lasts forever. Roley shot Simon. And disturbing news was given to me by an informant. Natasha has apparently been over stepping. Right hand man for South Philly involved in two to three witness statement catches. Risky game and information came forward that she was caught doing so. They worked something out, it’s none of my business. But that’s not all of it. People were getting random notices pushing Chicago and Detroit to go to war with each other. Natasha reached out to Detroit and said she would help them…

Push. Push. Push.

I’ve realized that with all this emotion and tension, people are looking in the wrong direction. Natasha is the one who needs to die. And apparently TonyTheTailor knew that Natasha was doing these things. Hm… that puts me in a tough position. Can I just kill Natasha without Tony firing his gun back at me or my loved ones? Not sure, honestly. This puts me in a really hard place.

I’ll do what I feel is best and inform Chicago, Detroit, and Darwin about what’s going on and let them brainstorm on how things should be handled. It might be enough to protect the peace.

Day 205

Well, after a sit down with some of the country’s highest leadership. I don’t know how I feel. Think it’s fair to leave it in their hands, but sadly my information comes with stipulations. The idea was bounced around to just kill Natasha and another idea that South Philly should die as a district, because Tony is a good leader and might go down fighting if his hand was killed. I don’t know where I stand on this. I pride myself in having solutions to problems, but I’m not confident in this one. It will be messy, but Chicago and OCD decided they would remove the district, and I allowed it, but didn’t get involved. I gave my opinions, but I want to be hands off and just inform all the parties of the truth in what was happening in South Philly.

Detroit kept to themselves, which I respect. Keeping the peace has more restraint in it than people give it credit. It’s the city I would be in if I wasn’t left with my own responsibility to New York and the east.

Decisions were made and South Philly will die, but I safelisted some people. This is either a really good decision or a really bad decision.

Note from Drieza on Day 205: I think I fucked up.

Day 206

Worst day of my life. I safelisted MrKrabs and he took that as an opportunity to kill BigEazy after he missed on Darwin. Liam rogued from my family and killed Spicoli. It was the revenge that they felt was justified. Eazy killed Johnny and Darwin. Two members of mine retired. And I shot one in paranoia that he would rogue on me too. 

I’m sick over it and heartbroken. The alliance I helped to build on the east coast is falling apart in front of my own eyes. I guess things like this should be expected, but this isn’t the way I imagined it would go at all. Even that damned whale, beluga, died on me.

It happened though. Can’t be taken back now. And the landscape has changed. With some of my most trusted people being dead now, others have stepped up to be the voice of reason in my ears. Minaxi and Tangerine.

Life before death. I must keep my oath.

I will protect those who have faith in me.

Day 209

Thinking on some things and taking advice from people I trust best, I’ve reached out to Detroit about killing Shane Stetson. Darwin didn’t really involve him in important decisions and that’s enough for me to decide that he, being my neighbor and ally, wasn’t going to be a thing going forward. I like the guy and he’s solid, but I need to get back to work to make a strong east coast alliance again.

I reached out to Detroit, because I also consider them part of the alliance, and asked if they wanted to help in our efforts. They accepted my offer. Shane will die and I already have Kristoff in South Philly now. Him and Matt are good friends and loyal to the bone with us. Matt deserves to be Godfather of his own district with someone that he gets along with and works well with.

That’s what I will do then. My hands and Taupe are on board with my decision.

Seems someone had something cooking up in their own plans though and rogued. They killed Taupe and left me without a crewleader again. That deadly shot should’ve been for me. Interlude reached out, and I felt bad that he was bothered about the situation, especially with the chaos I brought the world by safelisting someone of my own. I like Interlude, he’s genuine and sincere. A good ally that should be appreciated for being on the same team with.

Strength before weakness. I will find a way through this and keep moving forward. I won't retire and return to the old lands.

I’m expected to be a leader.

Note from Drieza on day 209: The Shane Stetson takedown was flawless. I still struggle with my oath about life before death though.

Day 210

I spent over 200 days doing my very best to keep the peace, but I’m human and I have flaws. Mistakes were made in hindsight. But I own the decisions I’ve made and stick to my guns. Am I the bad guy?

Hm. Maybe. People think I am, but I regret nothing. Sometimes, where lives are lost – lives are saved.

Should’ve just killed Natasha’s warmonging ass and walked away from the whole thing. We might be in a better place. Might not. It is what it is now.

Another informant came to me about Los Angeles, Las Vegas, and parts of Chicago making a move on Detroit. I’d question this informant, but I already knew they aren’t lying to me or stirring the pot. It only solidified my suspicion.

And why kill Detroit? Detroit hasn’t done anything wrong and has done everything we agreed upon as a new era of regime. Have they had some issues? Sure, but we all fucking have the same ones. Detroit was keeping the peace. I mean, fuck, they didn’t kill Spicoli over his remarks in the coffee shop over Simon’s dead body.

Nah. I’m not having it. They’ve literally done nothing wrong. I already made it public that I have a line in the sand. You aren’t just going to kill Detroit for the fuck of it. If you did, I’d kill you. They are my allies.

So, I reached out to Detroit and shared the information with them. Told them I wouldn’t put up with it, and I would fight with them.

Went to Dixxon and told him my intentions and he dived in without me asking him to. This is why I love that man. He’s willing to die for me. Matt and Kristoff are on aboard as well after Dixxon approached them. The dream of the east being united again happened. There was a silver lining to the disaster I feel responsible for.

Three hours later… we hit. It was war.

Day 211

Dean Winchester didn’t go down as planned. That man is a beast. One mistake turns everything into a battle.

The war lasted damn near 24 hours and it was a bloody one. With over 200 days of building empires, it made things difficult, but the way this life in organized crime should be. Big guns doing big guns shit.

With a wounded New York, rebuilding of Philly, and a strong Detroit. The Tri Cities of the East made for perfect companions. The west fought back and they fought back with pride.

A lot of people died on this day. Both sides bought in completely and fought their asses off. I have read about days like these happening in my father’s journals.

At the end of the day, we won, but with a heavy cost. The country will be crippled after this war, but it will heal. You must give respect to the attackers and defenders, it was a fight. It was long. It got sweaty. It’s the decision I stand firmly behind.

Journey before destination.

Notes from Drieza on Day 211: I was going to name xXArtiomXx hit squad leader of the year. That boy put in work. But Tangerine redeemed himself at the last moment.

TLDR: Just fucking read it.

Safe listing is selfish and goes against everything this place should be about. I hope you learned your lesson.

Great explanation. I especially appreciated the lack of TLDR.

Day 205

Well, after a sit down with some of the country’s highest leadership. I don’t know how I feel. Think it’s fair to leave it in their hands, but sadly my information comes with stipulations. The idea was bounced around to just kill Natasha and another idea that South Philly should die as a district, because Tony is a good leader and might go down fighting if his hand was killed. I don’t know where I stand on this. I pride myself in having solutions to problems, but I’m not confident in this one. It will be messy, but Chicago and OCD decided they would remove the district, and I allowed it, but didn’t get involved. I gave my opinions, but I want to be hands off and just inform all the parties of the truth in what was happening in South Philly.

Detroit kept to themselves, which I respect. Keeping the peace has more restraint in it than people give it credit. It’s the city I would be in if I wasn’t left with my own responsibility to New York and the east.

Decisions were made and South Philly will die, but I safelisted some people. This is either a really good decision or a really bad decision.

Note from Drieza on Day 205: I think I fucked up.

Well, I have my fathers journals. This is complete bullshit. It might be how you want to SELL it but just out right lying that it wasn't your plan is wild. The only part of this that was honest, is the last line. YOU fucked up. Trying to pin this on anyone other than yourself is just cope.  

Day 206

Worst day of my life. I safelisted MrKrabs and he took that as an opportunity to kill BigEazy after he missed on Darwin. Liam rogued from my family and killed Spicoli. It was the revenge that they felt was justified. Eazy killed Johnny and Darwin. Two members of mine retired. And I shot one in paranoia that he would rogue on me too. 

I’m sick over it and heartbroken. The alliance I helped to build on the east coast is falling apart in front of my own eyes. I guess things like this should be expected, but this isn’t the way I imagined it would go at all. Even that damned whale, beluga, died on me.

It happened though. Can’t be taken back now. And the landscape has changed. With some of my most trusted people being dead now, others have stepped up to be the voice of reason in my ears. Minaxi and Tangerine.

Life before death. I must keep my oath.

I will protect those who have faith in me.

Why are you, yet again, trying to sell a storyline that just isn't true? You KNEW he would rogue because you planned for him to. Anything less and you are just admitting you make really really dumb decisions.  

I have strong opinions on other matters but limited myself to what I was most certain of because of my involvement. In your defense, your ego wont allow you to accept anything other than the lies you tell yourself and your friends. I can't really expect anything more from you than a lie at this point. Even those closest, who thought they were close I guess, now know to expect nothing but lies from you so it fits the MO. 

My writing is terrible and I'm almost ashamed to say it but the world needs these logs.

Captains Log: Day 205 minus a bit

Tried to kill Drieza again. I failed. He thinks it was to help him but mark my words my shot was meant with ire and aggression. I will try again later. South Philly died too, I wasn't paying attention as I was only here for one hour per week

 At this point I can see my paper is tear stained and I reflect on my next words

Taupe is dead. My beloved Taupe. For most of my existence I have demanded his demotion and or execution so I could take his place as Hand. Instead he made me Hand! Then he died. I shot Drieza again, and missed. I will try again later.

 I remembered this entry well. It felt so recent and it showed how fragile life and Hand positions are.

My next entry was way more scribbled.

I am Hand again! Fuck yeah. Minaxi and Tangerine have tucked off somewhere out west to fight or something. I have been left behind, and the barrel scraping continues. I immediately reset Woots taxes to 0% as my first act. I am a benevolent Hand. Tried to kill Drieza again but still he will not die. I'm sure I will try again. Loads of people are dead but he is not. Fuck

the next entry was shorter than my friend Rob. 

Replaced as Hand again. Drieza still alive. Eala dead. Silver linings a plenty. Maybe I'll shoot Drieza again.

This was a very fucking hard read. Good fun.

I always think it's a little bit sad when someone posts their "controversial" opinion of what just happened...then chooses to retire without giving anyone the opportunity to debate what they said.

Reminds me of the kid who scores an offside goal, and when questioned says "it's my ball and I'm going home"!

Thanks for your input....now go retire.

Captain’s Log. Day 0.

Drieza’s nose grew three inches. It’s now so big he can smell Sunday dinner on a Thursday.

Utter shite. Own your involvement. Own your decisions. Along with Twigs. Everyone else has. 

No one gives a fuck. This is the mafia. 

What you’re doing now is just embarrassing. The amount of respect people have lost for you at this point is irreversible.

Go back and spin your nonsense to whatever’s left of 151.5.

Congratulations GF @Drieza on a well executed state of events.

Thinking on some things and taking advice from people I trust best, I’ve reached out to Detroit about killing Shane Stetson. Darwin didn’t really involve him in important decisions and that’s enough for me to decide that he, being my neighbor and ally, wasn’t going to be a thing going forward. I like the guy and he’s solid,

Unfortunately that didn’t carry enough weight.

Don’t get it twisted I have the utmost respect for GFC Matt. I feel Matt deserved the rank of GF and to be with his friend Kristoff.

It’s just a sad it was at the expense of @Shane Stetson, 28 dedicated  members.  

Whjy would I shoot Matt?

Being angry is like sitting in a rocking chair. It feels good at first. You’re moving, like you’re doing something but all you’re actually doing is rocking back and forth while the world carries on without you.

A lot of good people are dead. Some deserved better. Some made choices they’ll never get the chance to explain. That’s the weight of this life, and every one of us signed up to carry it whether we like it or not.

When my time comes, and every one of you is welcome to take your shot, no judgement given, i will choose to be proud of what we built, not bitter over what this life was always going to take from us. History will argue over the why. It always does.

This life only ever promised two things: choices, and consequences. You can’t control what’s already been done. You can only control how you carry it, and what you do next.

The guns are quiet now. What matters is whether we choose to keep building or sit there rocking.

I know which one I’m choosing.

He who controls the past controls the future. He who controls the present controls the past.

He who controls the past controls the future. He who controls the present controls the past.

He...? HEEEE? I find that very offensive The_Watcher.