"Outside my window I saw a peeping Tom. Granted once I noticed him I continued to undress because well, I like the attention. However, once I removed my shirt and looked back into the mirror where I can see him out of my peripheral vision, I noticed he had vanished. Were they there or were they not? Were my eyes deceiving or did the desire of wanting someone to be interested create the illusion? Was I being just paranoid? Or could this just be me acting delusional due to a deeper emotional struggle as of late with the desire to be wanted. I couldn't tell you, but the situation really raised an interesting thought in my head. If me, a lonely gender confused old he/she could allow emotions to take part to create this so called delusional antic, then maybe it does for others as well? Because surely I wasn't paranoid."

He/She doesn't do the normal every day "light a smoke in between speaking," instead pulls out some mushrooms and begins chomping down. 

"In every war aftermath we have accusations. For instance, the recent Philly debacle. Yes I say debacle because frankly, it did nothing to solve my gender issue. Now, there were numerous reports that it was caused due to paranoia. In this life of crime, paranoia is frankly over used. Yes we all worry about who's behind us, what that grandmother is holding in her purse before snatching that shit up, or what may be laying under those clothes of someone you really want to be hot before hitting the sack, but just aren't sure if that's their sweater or a pot belly. Now, given the circumstances of most wars, there is always so called evidence. Log's, rumors, and even pictures of each other changing in the privacy of our own bakery. I mean c'mon who doesn't like to bake in the nude? Just the other day I caught Lush making some amazing Crumpets donning nothing but an apron reading, "Mama Lush can cook some sh!t." The problem with Log's, rumors, and malnutrition is not only do they suck balls, but they can be taken out of context as we have all witnessed as of late. Whether in the nude or not. So basically what I'm trying to get straight is that technically it's not paranoia at all. We all have that lurking about, whether it's of your cheating grandmother or your chauffeur who eyes you funny as your eat your bagel. Rather Delusion, having a firm belief without hard evidence is what we are looking for. Going off our gut feeling is just the way of the mafia world. We have no option but to get use to it and push forward harder then Lestat giving it too -Sally- on those nightly escapades. I for one am sick of paranoia being used as an excuse.  It's an obvious statement and regardless if you like it or not, it's what gets the best of us from time to time. Whether you react on those thoughts or not, the feeling is still there. Delusion however fits' the molding a bit better."

I think sometimes as seen in the past have to draw out the information from some people as someone who really wants to change things sometimes has an over-enthusiastic tongue.  The truth is on a daily basis crews have so many reasons that can lead to a take down. the other day i heared a ca was shot at and the person who did it was still alive when i last checked. i watched some shady recruitment practices and heared of others where i noticed people with no mails get invited to families even though had never worked or talked to them while others were told is rude to turn down an invite.

In between we have people making posts which once got people shot or happy to insult others in the coffee shops and yeet most of the time we sit in our hold hands, lets have a tea party happy world til the sudden strike and an outpourring of wtf happend and why even though a list a mile long had built up on some people.

The truth is a dose of paranoia can be healthy, keeps you in line, keeps you sharp but too much and a quick downfall can follow whether a simple gangster or a godfather.

tony flicks a cigarette from his mouth to the street as he happens upon a mman speaking his mind aloud

Thing about being paranoid is, just because you're paranoid,  don't mean they're not after you.

When a man in this thing of ours becomes too comfortable, begins to stop looking over his shoulder and doesn't look both ways before crossing the street persay, he then opens himself up. We should always use our mind and think ahead opppsed to letting our comforts put us in positions a cautious man, a paranoid man, wouldn't let himself be put in.

Dexter just finished dumping off a body decided to make his way to the streets noticing an interesting topic he decided to step in and gives his opinion on the matter

Well UndisclosedDesire ultimately when your in a position of power someone will always be looking to make a move on you maybe not today or not tomorrow but it will eventually happen we all die it's the circle of life in this thing of ours , you sit to comfy thinking you are the top shit you can do and say what you want with no worries you are going to be lined with cement shoes real quick and the same goes with being to weary of every situation you are thinking everyone wants you gone and it is easy for the enemy to throw you a little hook of info hand you some rope and you hang yourself with it.

You have to find a medium and just be self conscience of situations who you trust who you let know certain things and don't get to full of yourself keep a level head and keep close with the ones within your city never distance yourself from them if you are aware and care you will be successful in this thing of ours.

After giving his thoughts on the situation Dexter made his way back into the crowd