Introduction

These Poems are thoughts, feelings, and real experiences I went through, so I want this to be my own personal thread. For future messages, or instances, If you are reading this thread you are entering my MIND and if you are not willing to accept my emotions and hear what I have to say then please leave this thread. I'm putting my thoughts and feelings into words so I ask that you please don't write in this thread. This is my way to keep me from not retiring/suicide, so thank you.   And for the people who support me...

Thank You, I Love you all.

 Enjoy!

Container crews is when we first met

We made a promise that will last us till' death

On and Off, but your still on my mind

You have your own life, and I have mine

Hope you forgive me for my stubborn ways

I know in the end, we'll have better days

But how mad would you be, if I ended it today?

KodakBlack

I could've saved you

but i was too scared 

now that your gone 

the pain I cant bare

stuck in depression

please let me out 

all of these words 

were lies out your mouth

you said you love me 

but where is the love 

cause i keep losing it 

to all of these guns

There she was with the blade in her hand

Scars on her skin replace kiss of the man 

She's played this part for as long as she's known

Regret fills her heart as her love leaves her home

She's learnt to be passive but such is a loss

Accepting defeat when he foreclose the cost

for her this was needed to be rid of the pain

You play the victim and i'll play it sane

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-xxx

My birthday, My birthday

Was one of my worst days 

How could you, how could you

Make me feel worthless 

I thought we were friends

I thought we were sisters

This is one day, I dont want to remember  

-@Azra

Before I lay me down to sleep 

I pray the lord My soul to keep

I hope its not too late for me

Difference, changing in the distance

time consumes my image

My friends see me different

Before I lay me down to sleep 

I pray the lord My soul to keep

I hope its not too late for me

Difference, changing in the distance

time consumes my image

My friends see me different

Heartless is his name 

but thats not what he shows

tellin' me its a game

friends come and go

gathering all my pain 

He help me find my hope

Shall I suicide, I shall tell' em no

I know that I'm not that important to you but to me boy your so much more gorgeous

so much more than perfect

Right now I know that I'm not really worth it, if you give me time I can work on it...

If I find a way would you walk it with me?

Look at my face while you talking to me

cause we only have one conversation a week

can I get one conversation at least?

You said "I dont Understand

How you dont got a man"

you just want me in your bed

cause i've been in your head

There you was talking shit to the man

He called you broke, cause mcdonalds the plan 

Outta line he thought you were a joke

all of them words, you made him choke

All these memories when we were just kids

You would go crazy, if he called me a B***H

Containers to BrickHouse, we came a long way

Being Crewleaders will soon be our day

Thoughts of suicide, came from your head

Sosa was gone, you wanted to be next 

There I was, standing right by your side 

If you do this, I would call it a night

its too much, my heart's crushed, i'm not alive

I wont allow myself happiness cause its all lies

I've seen the pain, Ive run away so many times

Death a I are companions, its here at all times

I can never sleep right

knowing I hurt you 

I dont deserve you 

I should've curved you 

I know im the worst boo

But i could be cool too

and you got them dance moves

and i got this vibe 

I swear its perfect to ride too

I wanna die too

we all wanna die too

I got this vibe, I swear he loves getting high to

I love getting high too

I wanna hide you 

How did I find you?

Ill be inside, Im making music to cry too

Crybaby

Nobody wants to talk to me

but everyone wants to walk over me 

and I always been "that kid"

maybe I wont be if I live

Nobody knows me

Nobody knows one thing about me 

everyone doubts me

But, ima' make it all come true

and I do it for you

I know all about the pain that you go through

Offense or defense, Passive or Voilent

I'll cut my wrist till' my heartbeat is silent

with the shell in my hand, I'm equipped with the pump

shots to his body till' he is a stump

Stomp out that fucker, her death will be slow

you made me do this, just as far as you know 

if you dont exist, then my pain can be rid

so I gut the fucker then eat like a pig

I AM THE HEART MARKSMAN!

Your helping me preach 

this music the only thing keeping the peace, when I'm falling too pieces

Look at the sky tonight, all of the stars have a reason 

a reason to shine, a reason like mine and im falling to pieces

Look at the sky tonight, all of the stars have a reason

I got a feeling that im not going to be here

so lets laugh a little bit before im gone

Ive been dreaming of this shit for awhile now

got me high now 

He dont love me but he singing my songs

...I miss you guys 

Heartless

Shonuff

Legends <3

They told me im going to be a legend

but I dont want the title now 

cause all the legends seem to die out..

and I'm always where the, sun dont shine

the tears dont show, won't hurt me now

cause hearts been broke, I hate myself

but it won't show, and I constantly lose

all my remorse, and its ten for the wolf

and three for the Shepard, and its one for the sheep

who led by your leopard, often gave his perception

as a handle of weapon, took a bite of your apple,

give me all you can offer, now im trapped in a changing maze

setting my soul ablaze, couldn't control the pace

where is it going? hey, heartless and recklessness,

it's word of a pacifist to word of a mascochist,

im off the map, my lord, I spoke to a baphomet, 

he said he will save me if he gave me one thing he needed

"what is this thing" I pleaded, girl its the key to even...

anima vestra 

To the special person watching

How have you been? 

Are you okay?

I miss you :/